This isn’t about me finding me, the world, the path… this is me deciding what the rules are going to be. Let’s assume for a moment that we don’t understand anything about this world. That we all function on the Surface. We choose our hair styles, clothes, our jobs, our social interactions. Our world. But […]
This is not a “Dear NIMH” kind of letter, but, I found it to be quite relevant in my on-going research. Joy from my work comes to me two-fold. There is the work I see in my Self that leaves me nodding with affirmation saying, “Okay. This is it.” And there is the change and […]
Okay. Here is a first glance at this… “People born with Libra in the First House are friends with everybody because they know how to act in public and what to say for no one to be offended. They don’t mind making compromises and finding the middle solutions, so many are seeing them as problem […]
“When life itself seems lunatic, who knows where madness lies?… Too much sanity may be madness, and maddest of all is to see life as it is and not as it should be.” – Don Quixote, Miguel de Cervantes Ironic how much Don Quixote is so much a part of my life. I’m happy… and […]
I am angry. And I just need to vent the anger and get it out. I want to… I’ve run out of words. It’s just a long quiet silence inside of me, and I can’t release the pain. … Next morning. The pain has been the hardest part. It’s like this thing that sits inside […]
Joshua. Something has happened to me that I need to share with you. Today is my birthday. I am 43 years old. It is also Mother’s Day. And this Wednesday, on 10 May 2023, I was raped. Someone who I thought was a friend, invited me to a spa to celebrate my birthday. The evening […]
Present Day I am using my relationship as a test subject for my research, which is why I talk so much on it. I have been in chronic emotional pain since July 2021. Shortly after my partner told me he was afraid of his decline in intimacy with me, that planted a seed of fear […]
Present Day Anger just set in. I acknowledged, “Yes, Angel. You are PISSED that you were hurt. It’s okay now. You’re safe. You get pissed. Get angry. How dare they hurt you!” But do they hurt you? I think we are saying that wrong, Joshua. I think it is not that others hurt us. But […]
Present Day I had myself a good cry. I’m coming down and I now must explain. Every time my partner, Juan, left the house I would grow anxious. The anxiety was indescribable. Every day, for two years, if I did not know he was home, then I panicked. Tonight is the first night since August […]
“Hello, Angela.” I look and there across the familiar Irish table sat Imagination. Probably the only one accessible to me right now who can walk me through this. “Are you ready?” “I am.” “Who do you want to be right now? “I want to be a woman who is calm and relaxed, confident, and who […]
