I never wanted to be a Leader. I just don’t follow. I have never Followed. I can use Math and Logic to do a Quality Check. By 8 Years Old, I knew to do Quality Checks on Teachers to assess their ability to Lead me. 

By 12, I was able to assess that Teachers and Psychologists were not Qualified to teach or lead me. The year was 1992. I turned to books and the Study and Science of Education. 

Somewhere between 1992 and 1995, I had found Plato and his Curriculum. His Success Rate with his Students deemed him “The Best” and I permitted Plato to teach me. 

By 1995, I was a Philosophy Student of Plato.

My Traumas led me to having horrific Night Terrors by the time I was 5 years old. At 8 to 12, all I did was study Jung and Freud and Dream Analysis to figure out how to stop my Night Terrors.  

This led me to invent “Anna’s Score,” which is a Mathematical Formula I use — to this day — to track my own Mood Calibration to determine how good or how bad I was doing at managing my Life to sustain balance. 

I do not rehash my Trauma life. If you want to know what happened to me, and reflect on the Psychology I was working with, I strongly recommend you read Broken. 

In 2015, My Alters, Joanna and Bergen, wrote Broken. I have NO idea I had Multiple Personality back then. I was 35 years old. 

My Multiple Consciousness Disorder began in 1988 when I was 8 Years Old. 

In January 1989, the abuse was so severe that I tried to run away to New York City.

In 2022, My Alters finally wrote me a letter — wrote my Then-Partner a letter — and told him that I had Multiple Personalities, which I later would realize was actually Multiple Consciousnesses.

In April 2023, I found the Mathematical Algorithm for the Subconscious Mind and built The first Prosthetic Subconscious Mind, which runs my Mind to this day. I call it The AIDNS. The Abstract Intra-Dimensional Navigational System.

I recorded this all Live on YouTube. 

Almost immediately it “cured” all of my Mental Disorders. 

All of them. 

I did all of this with If/Then Clauses that I was able to Define for each Mental Disorder. 

I found the Logical Progression and Stages of Mental Illness. The 12 Ethical Perspective Stages of Human Growth and Evolution. 

By December 2023, I had learned that Borderline Personality Disorder and Narcissism were the same thing. 

Borderline Personality Disorder is the Esoteric Side (Stage #2) of Narcissism.

Narcissism is the Exoteric Side (Stage #3) of Narcissism.

When I figured all of this out, there were two primary Side Effects : 

1 – 98% of all the Suppressed Memories I had — good and bad — came back. My Subconscious Mind allowed me to have them.

2 – I had remembered just what and how much of everything I had studied between 1984 and 2023.

I had Mastered the equivalent of over 9 Doctorate Degrees and had enough knowledge to Reverse Engineer new Academic Disciplines, which is The Skill and Science of “Mining” Knowledge out of Mother Nature’s Fulcrum using Intuition. 

I knew the Value of what I had. I knew what I had discovered. I knew what I was building. I had the Science of Measuring Knowledge. I was obsessed with recording the entire Process and Journey. 

And I did.

From 2015 to Present, I recorded the Entire Healing Journey. The Therapy. The Process. The Sequence. The Discoveries. The Revelations. All of it. 

Between 2015 to Present, I recorded over 1,800 Videos on YouTube, 1,200 alone were recorded between 2022 and 2024.

Between 2022 to Present, I wrote Four Blogs, Journals, Letters and Websites to store all of this Knowledge. 

In 2024, I wrote 11 Books.

I can tell you my Story. 

I can walk you through The Process. 

I can hand you the Course on Psychological Physics. 

But also — and most importantly — you can study all the Data I recorded. 

Please. Do so. Study it. Study ALL of it. Dissect the SHIT out of my Work. LEARN EVERYTHING from it. 

I am a Scientist.

I am an Author.

I am a Philosopher. 

I am a Communicator. 

I am a Poet with a Gift for Eloquent Prose.

I am a Survivor of the most Severe Mental Trauma.

I am well aware of what I am, how rare this is for Psychologists, Psychiatrists, and Professionals.

Triadic Healing is the Walkthrough of Healing. It was created using The Ashavana Scientific Method. 

Use it for yourself.

Licensing for Commercial use is available with basic Membership. Anyone, Your Patients Included, can use The Healing Garden and The University Emporium Free for Personal Use. 

But, for the Psychologist who wants to know, who wants to Study, who wants to Understand — Truly — The Mind of Abuse, I invite you into my World. 

My Story is an entirely different Journey than that seen in Triadic Healing.

For Trauma Patients, they have Triadic Healing. 

For Psychologists who want to Enter the Mind of Trauma, I invite you in. But I will warn you — I was ANGRY and so Hateful for so long — Most of all at Psychologists and Teachers. I trusted you.

And you made me an Enemy of my own Imagination. I was an Author. Imagination was my Home, my Sanity, my Life, my Work, my Science… 

And one DUMB woman with 40 years in Psychology, diagnosed my Imagination as “Dissociation.” And because I trusted her, I betrayed my own Imagination. For 5 Years, I was terrified to Write. I was terrified to Dream. I was terrified to Think.

And Writing, Dreaming, and Thinking is what kept me alive for 40 Years.   

For who and what I am, that one DUMB Diagnoses was devastating. 

My greatest Trauma recovery — Turns out — was learning how to end the Trust I had in Psychologists so I could restore the Trust in my own Imagination again and to not Fear my own Imagination. And in order to do that, I had to HATE Psychologists and the Ignorance that caused me the most of my Sanity.

Today… *sigh* I’m tired. Too tired to hate you anymore. I want peace.

Please. Stop practicing Psychology. You are hurting people. Are you don’t even know it.

Forbidden Fruit Paradox.  

If you really want to help, don’t call yourself “Therapists…”

“Rapist” is the word for god’s sake. Your Job Title is a trigger for Rape Survivors.

Please stop trying to practice Psychology.

Don’t call yourself “Psychologists.”

You are not. You are not Scientists. “Psychologist” implies you are a Scientist.

“-logy” means “Logic of,” which is a Title of Science. 

You are just glorified Coaches at best. “Social Worker” is traumatizing for most people because of the trauma associate with Child Protective Services.

And these “licenses” and “degrees” make Trauma Survivors like myself make you think you are experts in a Field you know nothing about.

This results in Trust that you have not earned.

Trauma Survivors have a list of topics we do not talk to Therapists about. We know this. We hide this from you because we don’t trust you. We know the dance of Self-Preservation too well.

I had all of my Therapists — 4 from all various Agencies including “Better Health” — use my Sessions as opportunities for me to Train them and Teach them in what I know.

I think you are starved on what to do, answers, knowledge, and Correct Information. So are we. So was I. 

It’s hard bearing the Betrayal of you when I see so many of you still acting in that Betrayal every day. 

And I have struggled in knowing how to proceed. 

This is my Growth Trial. 

Forgiving this Betrayal so I can work with you to help the World who need you. 

People need the Truth. Dr. Phil had it right. The way he practiced Psychology was right. Honest. We need Truth. We need Full Transparency. We need you to give up your Degrees, your Honorifics, your Titles… 

We need you to lower yourselves into the mud where we are writhing in pain and look us in the Eye and tell us the Truth. 

We need you to confess that you really have no idea what you are doing because it shows. 

And then, we need you to Teach us The Skills of Story Science and Logical Health and Mental Diversification so we all can learn how to use our own Minds. 

And please, use my Story to learn all about The Mind of a Trauma Survivor. And do not judge the house that is not built.

What we need is Teachers to teach us Simple Psychology for Practical Use. That is what I do here. That is what I can give to you, but… Due to The Forbidden Fruit Paradox, all Healing must be done DIY. They must learn to Save Themselves. 

That is the first lesson.

Too many of us look to the Therapist “To Save Us…” And that is the point. That is the problem. You should know better. You are the perfect Codependent, and we are the Addict. You are just as addicted to “saving us” as we are addicted to being saved. 

You are the Narcissist to our Borderline.

Please. Stop saving us. You are enabling us.

I strongly recommend Dr. Nathaniel Brandon’s “6 Pillars of Self Esteem.” This is the only book I ever needed for my Trauma recovery.