Ancient Wisdom. Future Learning.
In Classic Psychology, we are told that there are Primary Emotions, Secondary Emotions, and Tertiary Emotions.And Emotions “leveled up” like Pokemon!While this concept helped some, when it got down to really understanding the Cognitive Core Processing and Grief, the Classic Emotions Models became obsolete.The greatest emotion, Pain, was the one that baffled me the most. …
My favorite thing about healing is the final shift from Perspective to “Big Picture.’That is today’s healing. Yesterday… this weekend… it was…You know when you go to the eye doctor’s and they test your eyes. And after an hour they hand you a new pair of glasses… and you can SEE. And you look at …
Maybe NIMH isn’t who I should be writing to. I don’t know. It helps to think I’m writing “to” someone. Holds me accountable. Freud? Jung maybe?I found another stage of healing this weekend… This one… it was severe depression and feeling a lack of motivation, lack of want, lack of desire. Lack of doing. I …
I understand now. In 1993, I met a boy who would go on to terrorize me for 3 years. He was one year younger than me, but his violence, aggression, Narcissism, and pure evil reached levels that I didn’t quite process. In fact, I’ve never dealt with it. Now, things are surfacing and I am …
Shadow Work time. I had a thought earlier. The thought immediately evoked the emotion “worry.” It then switched over to “anxiety” and jumped to “panic.” It moved FAST. Why… I recently have wanted to retain my privacy. I don’t know why. Since 2015, I have never felt the need or desire to be private. Lately… …
This isn’t about me finding me, the world, the path… this is me deciding what the rules are going to be. Let’s assume for a moment that we don’t understand anything about this world. That we all function on the Surface. We choose our hair styles, clothes, our jobs, our social interactions. Our world. But …
I am angry. And I just need to vent the anger and get it out. I want to… I’ve run out of words. It’s just a long quiet silence inside of me, and I can’t release the pain. …Next morning.The pain has been the hardest part. It’s like this thing that sits inside of me. …
Joshua. Something has happened to me that I need to share with you. Today is my birthday. I am 43 years old. It is also Mother’s Day. And this Wednesday, on 10 May 2023, I was raped. Someone who I thought was a friend, invited me to a spa to celebrate my birthday. The evening …
Present DayI am using my relationship as a test subject for my research, which is why I talk so much on it.I have been in chronic emotional pain since July 2021. Shortly after my partner told me he was afraid of his decline in intimacy with me, that planted a seed of fear in me …