Ancient Wisdom. Future Learning.
I just got off the phone with a friend and… so much… I realized so much. I explained to him that I have had a frequency, one frequency all of my life. And I’m tuned into it. It’s part of me. It is MY NOTE.I used to be a musical composer. I studied music theory …
I understand now. In 1993, I met a boy who would go on to terrorize me for 3 years. He was one year younger than me, but his violence, aggression, Narcissism, and pure evil reached levels that I didn’t quite process. In fact, I’ve never dealt with it. Now, things are surfacing and I am …
Shadow Work time. I had a thought earlier. The thought immediately evoked the emotion “worry.” It then switched over to “anxiety” and jumped to “panic.” It moved FAST. Why… I recently have wanted to retain my privacy. I don’t know why. Since 2015, I have never felt the need or desire to be private. Lately… …
This isn’t about me finding me, the world, the path… this is me deciding what the rules are going to be. Let’s assume for a moment that we don’t understand anything about this world. That we all function on the Surface. We choose our hair styles, clothes, our jobs, our social interactions. Our world. But …
This is not a “Dear NIMH” kind of letter, but, I found it to be quite relevant in my on-going research. Joy from my work comes to me two-fold. There is the work I see in my Self that leaves me nodding with affirmation saying, “Okay. This is it.”And there is the change and relief …
Okay. Here is a first glance at this… “People born with Libra in the First House are friends with everybody because they know how to act in public and what to say for no one to be offended.They don’t mind making compromises and finding the middle solutions, so many are seeing them as problem solvers. …
“When life itself seems lunatic, who knows where madness lies?… Too much sanity may be madness, and maddest of all is to see life as it is and not as it should be.” – Don Quixote, Miguel de CervantesIronic how much Don Quixote is so much a part of my life. I’m happy… and then …
I am angry. And I just need to vent the anger and get it out. I want to… I’ve run out of words. It’s just a long quiet silence inside of me, and I can’t release the pain. …Next morning.The pain has been the hardest part. It’s like this thing that sits inside of me. …
Joshua. Something has happened to me that I need to share with you. Today is my birthday. I am 43 years old. It is also Mother’s Day. And this Wednesday, on 10 May 2023, I was raped. Someone who I thought was a friend, invited me to a spa to celebrate my birthday. The evening …
Present DayI am using my relationship as a test subject for my research, which is why I talk so much on it.I have been in chronic emotional pain since July 2021. Shortly after my partner told me he was afraid of his decline in intimacy with me, that planted a seed of fear in me …