We have a new recruit today. We are in the very early stages and onboarding is underway.
It’s surreal. Every time I find another one, I feel a massive weight lift from my shoulders… Like I don’t have to “hold so much” anymore.
Every time I meet the right person, I can feel myself grow from the connection. This one hit me hard.
I want the pain to stop. I want everyone to stop hurting. I want everyone to just stop hurting themselves and others. I want it so bad, I can’t think of anything else. The Wisdom is a tool to stop the pain. Because I love them. I love them all so much. I love you. And I hate the hurt and the pain. I hate how much the lack of Wisdom is causing everyone so much pain. And love is not enough.
Because without Wisdom, you can lose Love. Wisdom is the Compass of Love when you lose your way to Love. And even in Love you can hurt people. Which is why you must have Wisdom and Love. And sometimes, I forget. I get so focused on the Science of Love in my pursuit of Wisdom that I forget that the Wisdom is for Love.
But Love isn’t good enough. Because I loved you and that wasn’t good enough to keep you safe from me. And I ended up hurting you. Not because I didn’t love you. I loved you so much. But because my Wisdom wasn’t good enough. And I can’t undo the pain I caused you. And that cost me a price I have to live with every day.
Not because I lacked Love for you.
But because I lacked Wisdom.
And I feel like it will never be good enough to undo the pain I caused you. And all I can do is learn and become Wiser so others don’t have to learn — the hard way — what I had to learn the hard way.
And because I Loved you without Wisdom, I lost you. And if I had Loved you with Wisdom, then I never would have hurt you. And this is why I pursue knowledge, to keep those I love Safe. Because I learned that Love is not good enough.
And I must not forget that Wisdom is the Navigation of Love.
And every day, I hope. I hope that we loved each other well enough that we’ll find a way to get through this together.
And if I could, I would just say to the world, “Please learn what I learned too late… That Love is not at all good enough. Because I loved a man once with every fiber of my being. I loved a Man once so deeply, that it was beyond any Love I had known before him, and STILL it wasn’t good enough, and I know no one Loves anyone more than I Love that man. And still I ended up hurting him too deeply because I lacked the Wisdom to Love him Safely. And that is what I see the whole of the world doing.”
We all Love without the Wisdom to keep each other Safe in Love.
I loved you well enough to obtain all the wisdom of this world just so I could guarantee your Safety in Love. And I took every bit of my regret and poured it all into The Garden. Let the Garden be the metric of my Love and Regret in harming you in Love. But is it too late?
I know I loved you well enough to make it through this. I know you loved me well enough to get me through this.
The question is, did you love me well enough so you too could make it through? Did I love you well enough to get you through this?
And that is what I am waiting for. That is why I am here. I am waiting for the answer to this question. And I am waiting to the very end for this answer from you. No matter how long it takes. I am waiting so that, in the end, I can ask you and know.
Did I love you well enough?